These past few days was a bit of a whirlwind for us. It seems like almost every night would be a serious-conversation-night.
And ill end up feeling bad for making him feel how he felt afterwards.
Im too scared, too afraid of what the future holds and it seems to be taking a toll on us.
I love him more than what those 4 letter word can describe. Its basically indescribable.
I miss him every single day.
Im on the verge of tears as im typing this.It hurts wanting the days to pass by to the day when i finally get to see him again.
"Walau berjauhan..suaramu mengakhiri penantian..tabah mengharungi cinta..semua dugaan Maha Esa..."
I dont know how to pujuk myself anymore.
I nak pergi nangis bye.
Ei minah, i tak nak console2 u dah. this is not the time for self pity and nangis2 ok. you're a big girl! big girls don't cry no more niggah! this is the time u need to be the strongest. he's far away, yes. but as what nat said, one day you'll get used to it. he's far from u and im sure he misses u like hell too. but all these crying are not gonna do u any good dearie. kalau u nangis2 and then he finds out mesti dia lg worried kan. nnt dia jugak tak leh buat keje betul2. asyik fikir psl u je kat sini. insyaAllah nani, kalau niat u and dia tu dah betul (to stick together and nak bina masjid), Allah have surely better plans for you guys. lg satu, bersusah-susah dahulu bersenang2 kemudian. we just pray that one day korang tak payah la nak berjauhan sbb Hafiz dpt keje baru or etc kan.
ReplyDeletefocus on things here nani. as in the reality. i know ure miserable about ur work and stuffs sbb busy sgt kejar dateline, im juz a phone call away if u need someone to talk to. dont focus too much on the sadness...tak elok, Allah pun tak suka.
i know its easier said than done, but try my dear. i pun tak suka tgk u sedih2...i want my best friend to be happy.
so, smile always..
love u.