the 1st..

Today's the 1st of July 2011. He proposed to me on the 1st of  May. Its been 2 months. And i love him more each day. We did have our fair share of..well i wouldnt say arguments or fights but i do believe its called.."our serious conversations".. hehehehe

At times i feel like im still in doubt, is this real? Is he really serious? Because you see, we knew each other since..8 years back, met for about 10 seconds 2 years ago.. and got together... only a couple of months ago.. And the nature of his work will always have him out of my reach ie he'll always be outstation, offshore/onshore/ on some oil rigs..

At times too, ill think, will this work? Or will i get bored with him going off ever so often? But last night, as we were having dinner in OU, i looked at him, and thought.. what am i so afraid of? Isnt this all determined by Allah? I suppose this is the best for me, and he is the best for me, as far as im concerned at this moment.

I know that Mama and Ayah are really worried for me, if i were to settle down with him, will i be okay? Especially if hes far away, or going off so often, leaving me, will i be happy?

Honestly, i wouldnt know. I dont know. How will i know whats gonna happen in the future?

All i know is that i can pray to Allah so that my relationship with him gets stronger each day, and that he loves me more and more as time passes by, and so will i..

I know for a fact that he understands me, he loves me, i can actually SEE that he loves me, FEEL that he loves me, wholeheartedly, no hesitations....

And i dont want to let him go. Yes you may think.."ala baru berapa bulan kan.."..

Well i wouldnt deny of that fact.. It IS true at some point. But i also see close friends of mine being together after 7-8 years and still walk hand in hand, still closer to each other everyday...

Distance is not a hindrance, its actually an excuse that one makes when one wants to get out of the relationship.. On the basis that he/she cant handle being too far apart.

To quote Hafiz.."Dunia, sayang, dunia.."

Hahahahahaha...

The thing about him is that...

He makes me laugh, he makes me fall for him in ways that no man has ever made me. Believe me, mom and dad, give him a chance, give US a chance and see that WE can make it work.

InsyaAllah..

To my sayang, i love you too, more and more each day.