He gave me something......

Here i am, in Tiger, skipping lunch (read: had VERY heavy breakfast with Ling and Faiz after being forced invited by Ling).

Last weekend was a weekend full of, as cheesy as it sounds, of love. HIHIHI.. how can it not be when i spent 3 days straight with Haf Haf? *shyy* Although it was more waiting and waiting and waiting on his part, my gastric moment at the Curve, my night out at Renaissance....

But the best feeling was missing him AND being able to see him 3 minutes after he called. As opposed to him calling and me whining asking-in-my-most-adult-tone.."sayang when are you coming back..........................?" for the gazzilionth time. hahahahaha

So i accompanied him back to Bangi yesterday, and i had a wonderful time with his family. I adore his little niece Echa, a bubbly-full-of-life-3 or 4 year-old...his mom is the definition of Wonder Woman, (after MY mama, that is! hahahaha)... and the food........everything in his house is homemade.

We had tea which consist of karipap cucur badak pulut udang (omg i suka ni) kuih keria..and pulut durian with bread............and wow....................for dinner we had nasi udang........HOMEMADE, im telling you.

O_O

HOMEMADE. MASAK SENDIRI. BUKAN KEDAI.

O_O

hahahahahaha...wow...

And i had one naughty moment...on my side, that is..............

So after Asar, i was walking towards the mirror next to the opened window.

And i saw a guy, shirtless, walking back and forth in black jeans..

At first glance, i couldnt care less, until i realised that it was...........him...........and i stopped, mouth forming an O for 'oooooooooooo.....' and sneaked a peek peered through the window at that..that..i mean him....... HAHAHA

Dan saya terus beristighfar dan menampar pipi sendiri seraya berkata..'woi baru lepas solat kot!'

hahahahahahaha.....................................sikissaje...............

;p

And then i went outside, full view right on front of me and then i had a little monologue going on.....

'pandangan pertama takpe, kedua nafsu..tiga?empat...?'

HIHIHIHI..

Okay so i peeked when he wasnt looking, i was pretty much overdressed to be standing at where he was at that time.. NGEEEE. *shy shy*

Okay so.. kejap je tu...and then i went inside......hihihi

And then after Maghrib and dinner, we headed back to Shah Alam for coffee...for OUR time together..

And i missed him, i actually do..cause he basically spent time with his mom, and me pretty much with Echa, watched tv, makan, stared into space...... hahahaha

Ya Allah..if this is the best for me, permudahkan lah segala urusan2 kami, Ameen.

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And then at home, we had a little confession (is little the right word?) about our past..HIS past to be exact. He sorta found out that i used to like E... so thats just one bit on my side..

And then everything came out...on his side..again..

I felt strangely calm, oddly at peace...like Master Shifu in kungfu Panda where he had this little thing called.........

'inner peace......'

hehehehe....

However..i dont deny feeling a little something something this morning, i felt numb, i felt a million and one things in one go, and then to finally settled to NOT thinking anymore. Its something that you cant undo, its called the PAST for a reason, it has happened so let it go already..

Okay so my head is throbbing like crazy at the moment..

My eyes are blurring...

And im listening to James Morrison's You Give Me Something...

I need my meds.

Ergh.