Im tired, i really am.
My mind has yet to rest, and im in need of a getaway. For one night and day, maybe?
Work is piling up like crazy and although we have a new HOD, an EXPERIENCED one too for that matter, she seems to be asking for a lot of things. Yes its a transition phase for all of us and the things that shes asking are quite reasonable, to tell you the truth. But we are just so busy with too many things at one time, and im telling you, going back at 8pm everyday (you cant compare this to EY when i used to go back even later than that) for the whole week AND taking the train AND driving too is extremely tiring. Back in EY we had a bunch of us staying back. Back in EY you dont have to sign in at 845am else youll be targeted for coming in too late too often.
Yes, if i leave the office at 8ish every night, i am expected to be at the office again by 845am the next morning. And traffic is horrible. If i were to leave 15 mins late ie 7am, the whole trip will take me an hour plus. I dont mind reaching office early, but can you imagine getting stuck in traffic the moment you leave home, right until office all the way in Menara Maybank in PUDU yang forever jam tu?
In addition to the traffic, i just dont bother..or CANT be bothered to drive all the way anymore. The parking rate is so unreasonable, RM10.50 for a dodgy non tar-ed parking space. They still make money especially for those who had no choice but to drive but since i HAVE a choice, i park at Bangsar instead. A blessing to be having the parking pass at Dataran. Oh yes despite the free parking, going off late is not advisable. Sure its safe cause ill be walking back with my senior. But he parks at the open site and i have to walk an extra bit to the Maybank building...across the dark parking lot, into the almost empty parking space.
But being the nice girl that i am (hehehh)..i told him that im okay at walking alone..its just a mere 150 steps away from where hes parked. I assured him that ill be okay but of course, he IS like a brother to us (Hana and I), so he told me to text him once i reach the car. Yes of course, dan membaca ayat kursi sebanyak2 nya.
And with the rising crime rate and idiotic persons who attacked the poor girl at the Curve just made things worse. HELLO i go to the Curve almost every week. And at times id go there alone. I love the place so much especially during weekends that i dont mind just going there to walk around the market and grab a coffee while im at it. NOW? Yaya called me when i was leaving the office this evening...
"Nani did you read the story? You did? Good. You'd better be careful! You selalu pergi sana alone and frequent pulak tu.. DONT go alone, bring your friends..and oh im telling Mama so that she'll have a say when you tell her you nak keluar alone.."
=_=
You know, my parents are very open minded people, with limits of course. Their limit is..one of them is..Dating. I cant openly tell them OH BTW IM GOING OUT WITH (NAME OF BOYFRIEND) NOW BYEE!
No. Mama wont mind as much just so long as i balik by Maghrib but Ayah? Oh nooo....hahaha thats why i have the tendency to 'leave out information'. Ill be going out to say..pump petrol and run errands...BUT ill leave out the info that Ill be running errands with (name of boyfriend). hehehe Its not nice, i know but i seldom do it anyway.
SO the problem is now...
Ever since i broke up, i still go out, on a solo basis that is.
SO MY BROTHER IS SUPER ANNOYING AND HE CAME IN THE ROOM AND LOOKING AT MY LAPTOP SO I HAVE TO PRETEND THAT IM DOING MY WORK INSTEAD BUT HE FIGURED OUT I WAS BLOGGING ANYWAY.
So ignoring brother...........
Ok where was i?
Yes going out solo.........NOW with that case at hand, its gonna be harder going out. Unless i have a firm case of...Im going out with (insert name here).....
Sigh.
Anyway, that aside. That case is arguable anyway.
Which brings us to the next one.
My exam.in 2 weeks time.
Did i tell you work is piling up? I have 3 Maybank visits at 3 different areas and it must all be done by Friday before my 1 week leave.
ONE week to study this TOUGH paper arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
ONE more paper to go, and its the toughest okay. Its corporate finance. Its yucky.
So im worried about..
...
work..
my exam...
servicing the car..checking the battery..
OH and the most annoying part is that i always have this intention to stay up late and study ..
BUT to no avail. I will fall asleep..and id miss dinner, baby time...and family time..
Goes to show how tired i am.
And annoyed. And irritated. At anything and anyone.or everything and everyone?hahaha
Im struggling at being a better Muslimah, i struggle at praying on time, but i know at the end of the day, THIS is the most important.
Sigh. I worry too much, i know.
But i guess the most painful thing is to keep it all in, and still manage a happy face everywhere i go.
:(
No, im not happy now.
But i portray a happy self cause its........
....just easier that way.
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