Human ..what, now? Capital..?

Read a friend's blog about quitting your corporate job. No doubt that it pays the bills but how do one endure the dreadful feeling at waking up and going to work, day in, day out, like a robot?

Honestly, from the deep deep DEEP end of my heart, i feel like im getting dumb. My brain doesnt seem to process strategic thinking  anymore but on to more administrative matters- like rushing for papers to be circulated, preparing countless drafts after drafts after oh-my-God-what-else-do-you-want-to-include-exclude here?!

Ive gone dumb. Period.

This can NOT be happening! I had a dream to be the CEO..and that had scaled down to the CFO..and now the COO. How do i persevere? Honestly i am getting bored out of my mind.

Everything here is about pleasing people..thus the name HUMAN capital. Please people, make them happy and you'll be happy. ohh EFF off, i would say nowadays. 

I used to be the chirpy happy lady walking about in office with a smile on her face. But somehow this has changed rapidly. Being nice gets you nowhere. Nowadays, i dont bother being NICE, i DO MY JOB and get it DONE. Smile? Yes i do i cant help it these lips wont curve the other way around.

But to know that people talk behind your back, you get blamed for nothing- have made me into an iron woman. Yes i still feel like shit sometimes; WHY is this happening? WHY cant everyone live happily and mind their own business? .....

So now..if i feel like there are eyes on me when i walk....ill go (dalam hati laa.........).."eff off" ...and continue walking.

Hahaha jahat gile. But its true what they say; what doesnt kill u makes u stronger.

Imma sleep now! Penat gils